Relent / Respond has been a GREAT series, as we all know. Something to unite the church in what really matters - living the life Jesus intended for us.

Most recently, we've gone through the "gifts and talents" portion of holistic formation. Honestly, this is probably the most relevant to what I've been going through recently. On the search for a career, I've grown up with this misguided idea of what I should be doing with myself and my time. Ever since I watched the movie Good Will Hunting when I was a young lad, its premise has been sitting at the back of my mind for ages. If you're intelligent, and you're not super-successful, then you're wasting your intelligence.

Just like Matt Damon wasted his intelligence by being a construction worker instead of being an awesome math guy, I've always felt like no matter what I chose to do with my life, it wouldn't be enough. I've always felt in the back of my mind that there is this mythical and elusive perfect job, that if only I would apply myself properly, I'd be able to... what, win at life? For that reason, I don't think I've honestly ever considered what I should do rather than what I could do.

I have a certain combination of abilities and talents that no other person has. I now am able to act out of these things as a result of outlining these. It seems so base and obvious, but I've honestly never got past the "mythical and elusive perfect job" mindset. I've outlined myself to be a musical and story based creator, a predisposition towards wisdom through detaching and analyzing, and certain leadership qualities (like direct speech, working better under pressure, etc). All these things come with a passion for leading younger children or teens, helping the less fortunate in my community, and creating things. Teacher, counselor, mentor... all these things would be SUCH a big help to those around me.

But where does God Himself fit into all of this? I feel like living out the teachings of Jesus by pursuing a career that fits these passions and talents and being overall less lazy honors God directly, but where is his person in all this? Unfortunately, one of my weakness is an insensitivity towards the Holy Spirit, so I guess I might need to do a little more praying.