I waste... SO much time.

Why is it that, when there is plenty to be doing, I decide to do none of it? I'm positive I'm not the only one in this boat, but what can really be done about it? Self-discipline seems to be failing at every turn, and I'm beginning to think it's because my body itself isn't active enough.

Why do we, instead of actually confronting important issues with each other, grab a beer and watch a screen? Or drink a glass of wine and see what's new on the internet? Down a shot and shoot the breeze with our group? Why are we as humans (or is it as Americans), so set on NOT being productive with each other. Why do we feel entitled to relaxation? As we put our time in at an organization that we may or may not support to get paid for, but then think that we should just shut down our mind. Then after a couple hours of shutting down our mind, we actually sleep, and shut down our bodies.

There is SO much work to be done. With each others' lives, with the lives of strangers, with living conditions of those around us, with conditions of the heart of those even closer... I can't even imagine what most of it is, but it still needs to be done. So why do we feel so content with sitting down and conversing/playing/drinking/watching/sitting?

I do believe that part of our laziness comes with shutting out the outside world. Maybe we have this idea, that if we turn a blind eye to it then it disappears. Like some kind of matured form of object permanence plaguing our minds. Maybe the only way we can do this is by exposing ourselves to a select amount of the world that we prefer to hear about. We can watch something about Africa in the news or on a documentary, but since it's so far away, it only requires very few mental resources from our daily lives. We can watch the national news, and think (accurately) that we're up on our current events, but what the hell good is that? What about local events? Events next door? In our own homes? We can involve ourselves with select lives of select members of our community of choice, but how often do we force ourselves to seriously involve ourselves with people we don't know that well or even members of a different community? *gasp*

We're not entitled to mental shut-downs, as necessary as they might be every now-and-then.
We're not exempt from involving ourselves in other peoples' lives because we do it with a few.
We're not entering into a part of our lives where we're able to just "do our part" and then quit.

Let's get back some responsibility. Let's start being productive again. Let's open our doors.

*Sigh* These words are pretty, but do I see myself doing them sooner rather than later? Not likely. But I guess if we aim at the ideal standard then things can only improve. I expect anyone reading this to hold me just as accountable as I'll probably start holding you.