Round 2

Really happy to be back. With a purpose this time, no less. I'm sure a lot of these feelings have to do with my newfound resolve.

1000 nights

Just something that's stuck with me for a little while - incredible song, musically and lyrically.

Novelties

Yes. That is a man on a motorcycle that is smaller than the height of his knee caps. That is also the motorcycle failing to start. Ensue mild chuckling.

(took this while driving is why it's a crappy shot)

FAQ's

Got a meeting with my father next week, can't say I'm 100% enthused. I know this is the right decision, he seems remorseful, but it stops there. It definitely has an air of obligation or like he's initiating this out of guilt - but I'll give him a fair start.

It's been almost a decade since we've spoken more than two words to each other; this is what the problem is. Not only have I moved on emotionally and physically - I've learned to do without. It's just bordering on weird to have a father figure in my life again (I guess I couldn't be all that hasty even if I wanted to), since there's been this sort of vacuum/void in my mind regarding this for so long.

Either way, next week should be enlightening to say the least. Like maybe... what specifically caused him to walk out to begin with? What specifically? What caused him to ask my mom to leave with the 2 kids when I was 6? What justification was in his mind when he basically traded my brother and me for the house? Will he apologize for the damage he's done? Will he at least take responsibility?

Many questions in my mind. I don't plan on them holding back.

Gray sky

GOD I love the rain. I don't think I could ever get sick of it. It always somehow de-stresses me and helps me relax.




And lately... I've kinda needed it.